Don’t ever sell somebody short they may come back and show you a LIFE change! Day 88
Oct 6, 2018
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this is my story and welcome to it
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so clearly today I didn't know any
vlogging Ben I am so sorry you guys I
had the worst luck with my phone that I
could have clearly ever had and I ended
up spending over two hours trying to
upload my today's video today's walk
whoa no yesterday's vlog on today if I
can't even speak right and then I I
don't know what happened like the video
uploaded and then all of a sudden I got
an error notice from my e on my email
that there was something going on so I
had to go back in take it down reboot it
then when I went to go and reboot it
my phone was saying that there was not
enough like I didn't have enough memory
to upload the video again that's like oh
my god are you kidding me so I had to go
in erase whole bunch of stuff go back
reload my video backup well in the midst
of all of this I get an update that my
phone or I haven't I got a thing on my
phone saying that have an update so I
wouldn't finish where I needed to do
with the video for today's are to upload
the vlog for today then I turned around
and I went to go and do my upload or the
update and that update lasted almost an
hour and a half almost either was almost
I don't have for two and a half hours
something like that I literally wanted
to throw my phone off my balcony like it
literally almost was murdered today I
wanted to
I wanted to get rid of it we'll just
simply say that I wanted to get it for
my phone so in the mean time I got no
footage yeah because my phone was
completely being preoccupied with its
update and all this other crap that I
was doing so honestly today like sucked
big time I couldn't do my what I eat in
a day because I couldn't use my phone
and I couldn't do nothing because I
couldn't use my phone so I apologize so
much because that is clearly not not how
I run things and I like things to work
smooth in my manner so when things don't
run smoothly amy gets all bent out of
shape but um so I don't know I don't
know why that was happening why I did
what I did but yeah but I think I got it
all straightened out I had to basically
set a reset down on my phone unhhhh take
everything out replay everything back in
it was a complete mess then I had to
remember all my past codes -
everything's I forgot to write him down
Oh if it was one thing it wasn't another
so but on another note um I let's see I
was looking on line um I was looking at
women within and I noticed down at the
bottom of their their website they have
like where people show like what they
have bought from them and stuff like
that like try on things so I contacted
women within and I'm gonna I'm gonna try
try to possibly do something where I can
submit photos to them of my clothes that
I've tried on with them
and be featured on their stuff and then
torrid is another one that I just
branched out to today and well this
evening and tried to get in contact with
them and see if it's a possibility that
I might be able to be featured on their
website which would be kind of cool
actually it's not their website it's
their Instagram but either way it would
still be pretty cool so just trying to
get my little um let's see what did I
have for dinner tonight
I had what I had last night because what
we did is we bought like an extra-large
sandwich and then I have last night in
half today and then for lunch I had a
turkey sandwich just a home turkey
sandwich breakfast I had apple slices
and oatmeal and well let's see I'm going
backwards on this okay for breakfast I
had apples a mill I didn't have anything
for snack lunch I had a turkey sandwich
first snack I had today
oh I had the these veggie straws I don't
have them in here I'll show you
I had veggie straws and then for dinner
I had what I had last night which was
the Kahuna chicken from Jersey Mike's so
anyways yeah that's what I did and I
tried to get in touch with my doctor
today to get the results for my
ultrasound but of course nothing no not
the results but no he didn't respond
back to me so and then I had to call and
make it a doctor's appointment for s4i
because for the last like three weeks
she will just periodically come up to me
and be like mommy my back's how we my
back's how I and she points to the same
spot every single time it's her lower
back so it's just kind of bothering me a
little bit so I called today and the
nurse said to definitely bring her in on
Monday so we have an appointment with
her
dr. Monday at 8:00 in the morning and
then I have my counseling on Monday so
it's all right I'll just be on it'll be
a busy long day but that's all right
we need those days on once in a while um
but yeah there really wasn't much it
just I don't know it just wasn't a very
eventful day I guess well it was but
more eventful
off-camera because my phone and then
you're gonna notice that I went in on my
it's the cleaning video of the two
side-by-side pictures you're gonna see
that I took the music off of that one
it's gonna sound a little bit weird I'm
trying to figure out how I can take that
off we fix it edit it and then we put it
back up without it affecting my views
and my comments but I guess because I
used a song on there that I got off of
the no copyright music I guess it still
was like 19 countries which they were
all virgin island like island Islands
that couldn't get the video it was
blocked from them but it said that
something to do with when I go to
monetize my videos it wouldn't be
allowed to be monetized or something
like that so I was just like you know I
don't even know why it did that and then
my fireworks show one I did the same
thing cuz I didn't even realize you you
can go in and click copyright and it
will show you what videos that you did
copyright on that you shouldn't have so
I didn't I wasn't aware that I did that
so the grand old flag I guess was a
copyrighted song that I put on there and
you can't do that so yeah good times and
what else what else
I ordered I'm really excited
I ordered some stuff for my nails so I'm
hoping if I get this stuff soon enough
that I'm gonna do a video with you guys
on my nails I'm really concerned I have
one I don't know if you guys can see it
or not kind of maybe right there I need
to get some superglue it's tearing and
I'm afraid it's gonna get caught on
something and it's gonna rip and it's
gonna hurt so I'm thinking if I put a
little bit of superglue over the top it
will kind of maybe uh like you know put
like a gloss over it or something so
that way then it doesn't get caught
because it's gonna get caught and it's
gonna hurt like a mofo when it does so I
am thinking I'm gonna have to do
something because like three times today
I felt it get caught on something that
kind of a little bit I'm like oh oh oh
that's gonna hurt really bad because
that is like too far down for it to not
get sore so I don't know and then
tomorrow tomorrow we have a really long
day which I'm excited for oli has a
customer in the morning and then we're
gonna go to Woodburn outlet mall and
we're gonna go get the three kids some
winter clothes and some winter jammies
so that's gonna be exciting so we're
gonna do that tomorrow so I will
definitely take you guys along for that
because you guys really like that but
yeah I mean today was just no really fun
day but I did have a really cool
conversation though with a girl she
reached out to me on Facebook actually
we used to go to school together beauty
school and it was really cool because
when we were going to beauty school she
was going through a really dark dark
time in her life and so was I and in my
own I mean we were going on different
levels of
darkness I mean she was in a dark space
because she was she lost her children to
the state she was going through you know
she was having addiction problems and
she had a failed marriage going on and
that was her journey of darkness mine
was I was trying to find myself I was
seriously trying to figure out who I was
you know going to full-time school
working a full-time job trying to just
keep my head above water you know so we
were both in two separate worlds but
still seeing the same darkness and so
when we last seen each other was on our
graduation day and I just remember
hugging her that day and I just told her
I said keep in touch sweetie you know I
I really care for you and you know I
hope that between the two of us you know
that we make this and we make it well
and we know we write a good story for
ourselves so we went on our merry old
ways while they weren't merry at the
time but that was 10 11 12 years ago
yeah 12 years ago so she messaged me
today act or no yesterday sorry but I
didn't see it until today so and I was
on my laptop and I don't usually do
Facebook on laptop I usually do it on my
phone so if I get messages up they come
straight to my messenger but on my
laptop it comes up with a little bit
different so I seen this message I was
like wow I don't even recognize that
name I recognize the picture so I went
in and I started glancing around a
little bit and I remember and I read the
part where it said schooling or
something on her stuff and it said the
beauty school that we went to and I was
like you know she's kind of looking a
little familiar so I was really like
digging back in my memory box like where
have I seen this face before who is she
and
so I ended up messaging her and come to
find out it was the girl that we were
really good friends during this time and
I was just like oh my gosh how are you
doing and she's like well she's like um
since you know we went you know we
graduated school and stuff and I went on
to not pursue the career in cosmetology
and I which didn't surprise me because
neither did I um but I was really
shocked to find out that she is actually
in college so she started out going to
college to become a nurse and she is now
going to college to become a doctor and
I was floored I was like you're what and
yeah she is actually going to college to
become a doctor and to think back you
know where she was in her stage of life
when I last seen her you know she had
lost her children and you know so I
asked her I said oh my gosh you know and
I said well how are the kids doing and
she said well you know two of them are
grown and one is getting close to being
grown and she's like and I've had two
since then and she's like life is so
beautiful she's like I have an amazing
husband she's like you know we've been
married 10 years and she's like just
life could not be any more just life
couldn't be more beautiful you know now
and I said you know I just remember back
when you know we were in school just we
were both on such different journeys but
just both of us were in such a dark
space and she's like it really was the
darkest time of my life Amy and she said
you know I I was hitting community you
know to commit suicide and I was
seriously hating life I didn't want to
live anymore I didn't see
any potential I didn't see nothing for
myself in this world anymore
and she said one day I was sitting at
the homeless shelter because I had
nowhere to go and she said something was
on the table or something I don't
remember exactly but she said something
about there was a paper on the table and
she just happened to look down at it and
it was enrolling nursing school or
something like that and so she went up
to the administrator that was running
the homeless shelter and was like you
know how could I find out more
information about this and so this
administrator kind of took her under her
wing and which is really cool and she's
still to this day this lady basically
has become like a mother to her and she
took her in on the side and let her live
in her personal home and helped her
enroll in the schooling that she needed
to help me help enroll him in and um she
never made her pay a dime of rent while
she was living with her because she just
wanted to see you know her she wanted to
see her succeed and make this thing and
so at the time they all thought she's
just going to school to become a nurse
you know which is still amazing like to
go from being an addict to wanting to
commit suicide because you have nothing
left to give you're in this world to
wanting to start going to nursing school
I mean Wow Wow
so she pursued and she did it and she
graduated and then from there during
that time is when she met her husband
I guess they met in college and then
they eventually you know they got
married and then she moved from now her
mother because that's what she calls her
as mom you know there's nothing there
that makes it any different so she moved
from her mom's home and you know her and
her husband lived in
a small home for a long time she said
Amy it was a very small home it was like
800 square feet she said it was tiny she
said but you know what we made it a home
and we finished
you know I finished nursing school my
husband finished he was going to school
to become a dentist and so he finished
his schooling and they pursued in buying
a bigger home which come to find out she
doesn't live too far from me and she
sent me a home a picture of her home and
I was just my mouth about unraveled
itself it's like huge huge and I'm just
like wow and so then we kept hockey and
I said wow so you you graduated nursing
school and she's like yeah and it says
so where are you you know working now as
a nurse and she's like well I'm not and
I was like oh okay I was like well where
are you working and she says well I do
work as a nurse mmm
I have my nursing degree she said but I
now have moved on to school for to
become a doctor and I was just like what
a doctor just like yeah she's like there
is no star too far to shoot and she said
and that's what I'm gonna do and I was
like wow and she said I've got a long
ways to go but you know what I
we still live a good life and my husband
you know 100% supports my decision on
what I want to do and I was just like
wow wow so it really set me back and you
know and I would she asked me you know
like how I'm doing and you know so I
shared with her how you know I found the
love of my life and you know I married
him and I said you know it took me from
one season of life to another I said it
was just like a spotlight hit me one day
and my life lit up you know and I said
and
I haven't seen the dark corner like I
was at at that time when we were friends
and I said you know it just it it really
takes determination and it takes
reminding yourself that you're a human
no matter what and whether you're having
the struggles of your life they're never
too much to let go and to never lose
faith and never lose hope that there are
better and brighter days among you and
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just hearing her testimony of what
happened in her life and listening to
what I had to tell her about mine it
just showed me really how crazy life can
really be I mean she or she's sitting a
homeless shelter homeless cold hungry
alone no friends no nothing her children
were taken away from her doing this all
on her own some lady that works at the
homeless shelter takes her in mothers
her does not do it for her and she made
that very clear she said you know she
took me in but she didn't mother me in
the sense that she mothered me but she
didn't do it for me it would this was my
passion this is what I wanted to do and
I wanted to do it for myself because I
was tired of letting people do things
for me because obviously as I would sit
back and let that happened those things
would never pan out and I was like
you're exactly right I said that's
exactly how I was I took the handle and
I did it myself finally and I said yeah
I have gone through hell and back trying
to share my story with people that
didn't think that I was worthy enough to
be in the position I'm in today and I
said but you know what all that matters
is that I am so happy I feel so complete
in life my husband could not be more
amazing and he shows me what true love
is I might
children are the apple of my eye I was
like and that's what matters to me
everything else on the outside it
doesn't matter anymore and you know on
knowing you know and hearing her say you
know that she has been able to have a
relationship with her children her
children have come back to her
they understood she was going through a
really hard time in her life and they
still love her and they want to you know
continue one of her children are due to
have a baby pretty so she's gonna be a
grandma I was like a grandma goodness
but you know her daughter is so excited
to bring this baby into the world to
make her a grandma and that is so crazy
when the last thing I knew is that her
children were taken away and she
probably never see him again and hear
her children are coming back to her and
she has an amazing family and here it
just took one one choice one one
decision and that was I'm gonna take my
life back and I'm gonna own it and
that's exactly what she did so it was
just uh I just I loved hearing that
story and I love hearing stories of like
that like you're down at the very bottom
I don't think you can hit much more to
hit rock bottom but she has climbed so
far up and over that she doesn't even
see the bottom anymore she remembers
where she was at but she doesn't feel
that anymore and hopefully she never
will I don't think she will but but you
know and so yeah it was just it was so
amazing how Facebook can run such
amazing things like that and bring
people back into each other's lives that
you would never imagine would even that
you would never even get to to know or
you know how did not be Facebook I would
probably never unless I ran into her
from a store or something but I mean she
sounds like she's quite busy that she
probably doesn't shout very often
between her family time in her school
time
but I mean you know it's just it's
awesome to see that Facebook brought
somebody back into my life that I
thought was never gonna make it in life
in here she's above and beyond where I
would ever imagine and some and that
made it even better that made it the
topping but anyways so yeah it was just
crazy I just it was it was amazing how
that story went but anyways yes today is
a very short vlog it was a sit-down vlog
I am so sorry like I said tomorrow is
gonna be a much better day with shopping
for the kids as winter clothes and stuff
it will be exciting and take you guys
along and see the craziness that happens
with us when we go shopping but anyways
as always I really hope you guys enjoyed
the vlog today though I I just I always
make I'm thinking about you guys so
that's just it
that is it and also I could not do the
Dame eating the I could not do what I
eat in a day vlog obviously because of
the way my phone was reacting so I will
shoot to do that tomorrow I don't
foresee haha
any problems let's not say anything far
too much before myself um but yeah I
will try and do a what did I eat in a
day's vlog tomorrow
but anyways other than that I'll sing it
and camp tomorrow morning but you guys
take care have a wonderful start to your
weekend tomorrow to hear it's gonna be
nasty and rainy all weekend long but
that's Oregon for you so we just go
along with it doesn't stop us but I will
check in with you guys bright and shiny
in the morning until then take care
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